personal ramblings

Personal ramblings.

Hello there, I haven’t been
writing in a while, 

Humans are alive and
very dynamic. We need to constantly be doing something- there is really no such
thing as doing “nothing”, only non productive activity. Personally if I have
too much of those days without productive activities, something builds up
inside of me. I’ve been having these “attacks” on certain semester breaks and
mid term breaks. If I’m not mistaken, this attack began when I was 16, it was
school break, I didn’t realize it back then.

The “thing” that builds
up inside of me that I’m talking about- the closest feeling that I can relate
to is the feeling of anxiety. Anxiety is baad. It builds up negativity. A feeling
of hopelessness. All your past negative experiences starts knocking on your
door and then I overthink things and it slowly consumes me.

The only way to avoid
this is to fill my day with meaningful and productive activities which benefits
me emotionally, socially or even spiritually.